How can I not be lazy?

I can't wait till the end of year exam is over. Somehow I get lazier and lazier second by second which turns into minutes then hours then days then weeks then months then years. But I don't want to be lazier and lazier. I want to study but I get distracted. Except when it comes to homework.

I already imagine the worst of my results. Even NOW. Can you believe it? Urgh........ Canakn ne? So I don't mind teachers giving homework, just not tooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much. I also want to have fun and enjoy every seconds I have. It might not happen again. Hehehe....

You don't know what will happen tomorrow or after 1 second. A lot can happen in 1 milisecond. Mentally only but physically, at least 10 seconds or so. Hehehe....

Okay, after this, I am going to do my Maths D revision. Hehe... It will happen

For now,
Arideverci...

Some things...

First of all, it is better to keep some secrets at schools and never bring it home, maybe one day but not the present nor the near future. Some things are better to leave it behind in class or school. If you know what I mean...

*sigh* The secrets that are told among us, stays among us. Never leak it out without asking permission. Ok, k?

I am not implying to anyone particular, I am just saying it.

Oh yeah, somehow I miss my old life before it changes... Hehehe....

Rain, Shower and Tears

All these have one thing in common; water. Hehehe.... Actually, for me, it's two: 1) water 2) it makes me relief.

Rain, especially with thuderstorm and lightning and falls at night, it makes me relief of the surroundings...plus it's cool.

Shower makes me feel clean (duhh...). Besides, this may sounds funny but sometimes I get inspiriration and ideas when I shower.

Tears just makes me relief when I cry? Is that right? Or is it just impossible?

Hahaha..... whatever.

It just makes me feel happy and all the burdens, fears, sadness, etc, has been lifted.

Hahaha.... like free. A free woman? Yeah right.....

Just nonsense. Got nothing to do, so... typing helps.

School without doing anything? That would be boring.... Eventhough I can be an entertainer, some random lame entertainer I would be, as Sherl pointed out during lunch today just because I talk a lot and non-stop. Hehehe... That might be true.

So... it's still early october yet exam is just round the corner and before you know it, it's over then we can celebrate it. Yay! I honestly have to work hard for next year. I have to slave myself to get it. I made a promise with my uncle and it's sealed. Urg.... Now he's rubbing it in me.

This year's 3rd term holiday is more towards fasting holiday than Hari Raya holiday. Urgg... I'm choking and it taste weird in my mouth!

Hehehe... I'm with the present actually. I'm tired of loooking forward to the future. It went so fast. Trust me, before we know it, it's time to go our seperate ways. Ahhhhhhhhhhhhh! I just want put that thought to one side and focus on the present. Hehehe....

Hey! This is my confession.

Haha... This might be suspense for some of you. Big it's actually not THAT big. Hahaha..

I like my new family. This year's classmates compared to the last three years.

Told you it's not that BIG.

Now the world knows about it.. Hehehe. I guess that's it for today then.

Selamat Hari Raya....