The Library Today

This morning was as usual, except for having breakfast; wake up early morning and get ready for school. It was just as daily. What can I say? It's daily life. I had my english oral for 'o' level today.

When the class ends at 11.50, I was normal. I had my sanity at that time but I lost for a moment at teacher's cafe. A moment ONLY. Anyway, The oral commence at 1 o'clock that afternoon and I my turn is still a long way to go.

At about 2.30 or so,

I was called. I looked beyond the two doors that seperates me from the room and numbness was I felt. After I pulled the first, then the second door, I was in an air-conditioner room. The cold air lingers in the silent library. I was still numb. As I sat down, the librarian gave me a sheet of paper. I read the passage, but my mind was flying to another world. I struggled to focus and get the words to enter my skull!

Anyway,

Janice had gone outside. It was my turn to blabber about to the examiners. It was nerve-wreching. I was excited at first but then, sitting there, waiting for my moment to come, has converted all my excitement to nervouness. How can that be?

The thing is, I don't want to talk about my oral or how it goes because when I left the room, at 3pm, my heart was thumping and thrusting inside my chest. With that, I turned to my cousin and a few of my best friends. Now, I'm just trying to put it all behind me and move on.

On Thursday

The noise
is lowered.

In class 5E,
The pupils are doing their jobs;

Sleeping,
Silent reading,
Chit-chatting,
but in low tone.

It's the last 2 periods,
The teacher is busy
marking our test papers.

However,
It is getting noisier.

Unknown

My closet is full
of skeletons.
They wanted to break
out of it.
Telling the world of
their existance.

But no,
I can't let it out.
Not yet,
this is not the right time.
Maybe nevr will,
All of them will be chain
and die.

The truth, will forever not known,
The stories,
The lies, necessary ones for protection, and
The reasons behind it all

Will die with me.
In the very end

My Life After 30/07/09

Actually.... nothing has change. I'm living my normal, daily life. Trying to find something that can spice my life a bit. Mock exam has finished.... I don't want my papers but force to. Teacher will ask to look at the marks, calculate it, do corrections then keep it; the usual stuff. Normal lessons will resume tomorrow I guess. I have nothing to celebrate. I went to DQ last night at Bandar, I want to eat this particular ice cream but apparently the ingredients to make has finished. The ice cream is oreo cheesecake. I have no story, no idea what to write about and I'm going to watch channel 413. This one paragraph nonsense tells you how bleak my life is right now. I'm deciding whether to go to 'majlis' that my neighbour is having later at 2.30pm. A huge sigh from me....

Resurrection

I was dead.

Abandoned by her was harsh,
My purpose in living
was gone, so
I died.

Silly you may think, but
how can I live without her?
What's the purpose?

Now,
She's back!
I'm happy but hurt still.
Hope she would never ever
leave me again.

Afterall,
I'm just a blog.
Without Rai, who'll
maintain and most of all,
Love Me!

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